It's Been A Long long long Time since I Posted...

Geeez, its been a long long time since my last post here, i was actually surprised this still existed.. i already forgot about my blog postings until i was tempted to log in after browsing another persons blog.. anyway upon seeing my last post it was last 2009 i realized i need to at least update this, upon seeing my old post i saw that it is all about my opinion on certain topics but i soon felt that since it has been a long time then it's time to break a rule on my blogs which is not to used blogs as personal diaries. this will be a bit like a diary but somewhat a look at some of the events that happened that i could remember on my life since i last posted in this blog. 

This wont be in a chronological order...

Well first of noynoy was now the president of the republic so far not that bad thou, there's ups and downs and that is to be expected and then as always there's a wish for much more improvement in governance. I think among that past presidents, noynoy was the one that was able to start the ball rolling on the modernization program of the AFP.. lately ive become a fanboi when it comes to buying new equipment for our soldiers like new planes for the airforce and new boats for the navy thou there is still much to be desired but atleast there is some procurement going on.

Well during 2009 i'm still in the Management of a Gasoline station, oh well now 2014 i have moved on a different career path. It Sucks, It Hurts, Its depressing, It felt like i lost something special, one time or another during those very difficult days after the station closed i probably felt of just ending my life (yeah too dramatic right, but i'm still here, still obese and alive.. lol) Until now when i pass by that station going home everyday it still stings hurt.. i sometimes just shed tears and hoping the stop light would just turn green just so the car could move on already.. anyway there's really no body to blame with that gasoline station debacle except me, i take full responsibility for that.. it's a shame that i'm the reason for it's closure and depressing to know that i just lost a crown jewel of the family even thou the family keep showing up a brave supportive face to me but deep inside i know they were hurting very badly and it's because of me... IF ONLY I DID MY JOB it won't have come to that... I want REDEMPTION!!! but as of now financially it won't be possible but someday someday i wish to have my redemption..

Speaking of career path, well after that gasoline debacle i was assigned to manage a farm, A pig farm with some chicken laying eggs and a few cows, goats and native chickens around.. The focus really was pigs coming from a recently depressing stage of my life i was not ready to handle a farm yet alone manage any business.. The timing of my entry was awefull i could not have come at worst time, we could not find a buyer for the pigs and the pigs are starting to grow at a weight they are already considered as overweight and less desirable and so if a buyer was found those buyers in turn are offering prices that are well below market value and the pigs that we have that are desirable are also not faring well because the market prices of hogs at that time was in a funk, the prices are so low the pig farmers like us are bound to lost money. It came to my realization at that time that raising pigs is not profitable since the total amount on pigs i was selling could not paid for the farm expenses, i was already recommending that the pigs business be shut down because it's loosing money at a rate that our capital would be wiped out and be in deep debt. My mom is strong and brave enough to not give up and keep telling to continue it's operation no matter what.. Sure enough the pig industry slowly and surely started to improve, live hog prices slowly started increasing and now since the last part of 2013 until now in early 2014 the prices are very nice that i could say where on the road to recouping that money that we lost during those challenging times.

My Dad passed away last 2010, oh god i was at his bed side upon his death, i saw how he died and his last breath, on how the doctors and nurses at makati med tried their best to revived my dad.. it's the lowest of the low of my life it the worst time of my life. His passing was totally unexpected, i know my dad was sick but have no idea what it was and how serious it is, i have an idea he was having health issues since in the latter part of his life he was going for check ups a couple of times and was confined for a few days in hospitals but i thought of nothing serious since he always go home after check ups and when he got confined in hospitals its only for a few days then he would arrive home as if he was healthy, even during his last confinement in a private hospital here in the province and his eventual transfer to makati med in makati i was clueless on how serious it was (no body is telling me how serious it is, all i know is its a simple illness and that he only needs a rest to get back on his feet) and in fact i just doesn't seriously think that something is to be worried about since my thinking was its my papa and he will be confined for a few day then like as always he would go home, i never thought at that time that he won't be coming home alive anymore. When i was a kid i was afraid of my dad, he was after all the disciplinarian of the family and i was this kid who made mistakes most of the time and so i ended up being disciplined time and time again BUT during the latter years of my high school my dad had mellow and i did too, so i see less and less of his discipline but more on talks when i made error in judgements. Regrettably i only started to really appreciate and truly enjoy my dad's company a year or two after i graduated in college, he was always there for me, to give advice, help me out in the gasoline station and encourage me always (thou regrettably those encouragements came to nothing as i never acted on most of it) we laughed more now than when i was a kid, he seems to become a joker more and more of the time as he ages, he seems to be more relaxed and happy ever since he and my mom bought a farmland in san jose. after college me and my dad often talk enough seriously, jokingly, simple talks, a little chit chat, peace full banter/debate at times that it removes my anxiety of approaching him for a simple talk or asking for favor and those later in life talks is what i really treasure and deeply miss everyday.. Love You Pop's and someday well meet again..

A few weeks after my Papa died it was my grandma who went to heaven, it was a double whammy specially to my mom, my lola is only a few years short of reaching the coveted 100 years old. sayang it would've been fun to brag that my grandma is 100 years old. My grandma whom we fondly called lola itay is very beautiful lady if you could see her picture during her younger years it's not surprising my lolo isko fell in love with her. my lola itay signature dishes that is always at the table during gathering is her adobo in assuete very tastefull and also her tsokolate, i remember my lola sometimes will be missing in the dining area it's because she is in the dirty kitchen trying to create those tsokolate to give to all her children before they go home. my mom i don't think was able to replicate those but i know she has some of those still in our refrigerator. my lola itay loves to go to the parlor to fix her hair, either to curl it or straight it out, hehe thats one of my memories about her. she is also very masipag, she actually doesn't want to stop working in her store even at her old age but thanks to some convincing she relents and retired without having to worry financially since after all lola itay and lolo isko due to their hard work was able to establish a corporation that is still running great today thanks to the great management of them and eventually their kids. She is after all the last living grand parent i have, so her passing hurts deeply and thus hearing her laugh and that smile of hers are still being missed today. Love yah Lola..

My little Sis graduated from college a few years ago, it's great specially my for my mom seeing her last child, her bunso graduates in college and seeing that she with papa was able to send all their three kids to a great school and seeing all of them finish college. I know pop's was there but his physical presence was definitely missed.

Some of my cousins got married and i got some little nieces from them but alas me and my sisters are still single.. no comment on why.. lol

so whats up with me now? i'm getting old by the second hehe.. well lately i have been attending short courses at UPLB regarding swines and poultry and looking forward to attending a few more.. just attending those short courses even at this staged of age of mine fueled some desires in me to go back to school but alas i still am finding it hard to seriously commit my self to doing paper works, projects, assignments, quizzes, reading books.. i probably am just enjoying learning new things without the pressure of actually proving that i learn something and also probably because i got fond of meeting new people, talking to them, learning from them, sharing knowledge and experience to them and the fact that i even surprise my self by being talkative at times, to the point that i felt i'm becoming too annoying to my classmates but in reality i'am quiet and reserved, hardly speaks at all and most of the time uneast at the company of strangers but during my stay at UPLB i realize that its only during a few days but later on i relax and get to enjoy the company of strangers.. oh lastly seeing and meeting beautiful ladies is a plus too, too bad thou i think she is taken... booo booo lol...